hanging on the thread of faith..

when facing difficult situation, it feels like we are hanging on to the thread of faith..
yet many times we just feel like give up and let go,
then fall into oblivion and immense in self pity and cry over spilled milk..
yet not knowing that as hard as we are holding on to that thread of faith
God is on the other end, pulling us in, shouting encouragement
yet we humans so many times could not hear the voice of our shepherd
decides for ourselves its time to let go and fall..

When is all this troubles going to leave us?
sound like what we says when we faces trials and tribulation..
is God telling us that we are suppose to depend on Him?
that we have been seeking for our self interest and not His?
then you will tell me that its easier said then done, weiyang..
don't need you tell me that and blah blah blah...
but for me,i will ask:"who knows what you are feeling right now?
who knows that you are feeling so terrible?"

thats why i never fail to look for people to seek advises..
whenever i am facing a difficulty, i will seek God first and ask Him to let me speak to someone..
and it always leave me with tears, thinking how much i have fall short and sinned against God..

now that things need to change, i need God to carry me through..
i'm now weak physically and spiritually.. i need to get things right and move on..
to focus only on God and my upcoming exams..

time to end off now.. would be going for a run with jonathan^^

~weiyang~
To give what i could not keep, to keep what i could not lose ~dickson